My wife and I both love music. My parents were in a band, and they used to practice every weekend at my house, so music has been a huge influence on me for as long as I can remember. I sing and (used to) play drums. We both like to sing, and IMO, we both can carry a tune quite well.
This morning my wife chose a song to listen to called "The Reason" and sang it to me.
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
I hadn't heard it in a long time. I'm very familiar with this song, but had never really paid close attention to the lyrics before. It was so fucking on the nose that I broke down and started sobbing. So did she... but I don't cry. I didn't expect it. However, despite my embarrassment, it was a good cry. She practiced it before singing it to me. She knows my relationship with music and she knew it might touch me.
She's a country music girl, so this type of music is a little outside of her wheelhouse, but she knew it would resonate with me. Maybe it's cheesy, maybe I'm being cheesy, but I'm so moved right now. Enough to post about it here. I know it came straight from her heart and she really means it. She's been working very hard to be a safe, reassuring partner and a good wife for the last several months. She stepped outside her usual musical zone, took the time to learn that song and those lyrics for me, and completely surprised me with it this morning.
Sometimes even the most simple things, like learning and performing a new song for someone you love, can have a huge impact. We might have a new "our song" now.
